More than ever I think to myself just how many people I don't ever approach whether it be my usual Friday night outs or even just someone on a bus or train. Okay, the latter might be stretching it since I shouldn't expect to talk to someone each time I'm on a public transport, particularly when I'd rather listen to my iPod to let the journey go by but there's been the odd few that I've seen while travelling that I wish I could have just tried saying hi to for a change.
For Friday nights, while I know a lot of people at The Hotel California already (the rock bar that I go to), I always feel that there's plenty more that I haven't spoken to and am potentially missing out on some great individuals. With me I usually just let others talk to me first so I don't feel like I'm being a bothersome to whoever but I just never know what they think of me until I try talking to them. This isn't to say I always just let others break the ice for me but that's the case most of the time.
For the way I just act like this, I feel it's not a matter of bad at talking to girls but rather it's just being not so great at talking to unfamiliar people in general. Now if I were to be more open to others I think I could do a whole lot better. I want to put this theory into practice for this Friday but chances are I'll probably still be my awkward self and only talk to those I'm familiar with. At least I'll give myself twice the opportunity this week as it's gonna be Saturday night as well and usually I don't go to the Cali often on those nights due to Fridays already and going there then generally has a different crowd. Supposedly one did flirt with me the last time I was there on a Saturday but was so oblivious to it. Shit like that needs to change already.
That brings me to another thing. If there's something I should try and do better with, it's breaking the touch barrier. Now this I won't and shouldn't go overboard on but if I feel I'm getting on well with someone, I ought to see what happens if I take it slightly further. After a few experiences in the past, one thing that's helped is just... cuddling. It might sound big to do but it's worked a few times before and if it gets seen as too much by them, all they need to say is no and that will be it. Sounds simple, doesn't it? If they don't like it, fair enough but if they do... see what happens.
Those are two things I definitely need to work on but facing that shyness of speaking to those that I'm unfamiliar with really needs to be beaten. This is something I definitely learned at MCM Manchester but now I really have to be more outgoing, especially when I have a two week work placement at Marks & Spencer and being all quiet to myself while working is only going to make me fail it so easily. I better be more brave with talking to strangers and with those skills of socialising, perhaps I can improve even more at my night outs.
Some may think I'm fine with the way I am but I want to tweak my personality and if these improvements happen, I'll be a whole lot happier with myself. I will seriously be made up if my confidence greatly improves from the work placement, even if it's only two weeks and I'm not getting paid for it apart from travel and lunch and it's an hour and a half just to get there but hey, it will do for now.
Monday, 28 July 2014
Tuesday, 22 July 2014
MCM Manchester 2014
So I went ahead with attending MCM Manchester 2014 as stated on the previous post and now that it's (sadly) all over, I can now express my thoughts on the whole event. If I was to describe it with one word it would be sweaty. :P Kidding around aside, I easily describe is as unforgettable. Having never attended any Comic Con events before, my expectations of the event exceeded! I knew it was going to be a really good time but damn, it really blew me away. Sure, there were some difficulties such as waiting in the rain for a few hours, having to carry my luggage around on the Sunday due to no cloakrooms at the venue, those issues were really overshadowed by everything else.
There are so many great moments to mention that it's hard to know where to begin. I'd say for starters it was great having many people approaching me calling me The Doctor as I was dressed up as the Fourth Doctor (Tom Baker) and I appreciated everyone taking photos of me. However, the photo shoots that the Whovians did a few times throughout the weekend did actually get a bit tiring due to posing with a sonic screwdriver for half an hour which really did make my arms ache over the weekend but it was still worth it. I only hope I can find loads more photos of myself with the cosplay whether it be on my own or in a group of any size.
Other moments I really liked was some of the awesome cosplayers that I came across. While so many were fantastic, I have to give a shout out to the ones that went as Daft Punk, the one with a cardboard box over their head and ran around the building with it and the two that were cosplaying as the Star Wars AT-AT. Those all are undoubtabley legends as well as others. Another notable moment was meeting Hattie Hayridge, Holly from Red Dwarf. I had wanted to meet the Dwarfers but was unsure about spending £15 on an autograph at first. I sadly missed out on Robert Llewellyn and Judy Pascoe due to meeting up with one of them on the Sunday and they were left with Chris Barrie and Hattie but it was still a pleasure speaking to Hattie as she said "Hello Doctor!" to me. Decided the autograph would be for the whole family and managed to get a photo with me which I'm pleased with.
As much as I enjoyed the whole event, if there was one thing I was rather disappointed with it was my shyness. Seeing so many people that I didn't know with them being in cosplays and everything, I felt awkward just approaching everyone and trying to take photos with them but I really should have thought that others there would have been just as nervous as I was. Being fair, this was my first time so I will be a little rough around the edges but it still disappoints me that I had spoken to very little of those in Adventure Time cosplays and I really love that show so missed opportunities on speaking to likeminded people is a bit of a bummer but I suppose I can't win at everything. At least hanging out with the Whovians was a pleasure and it was easier to speak to them due to relevant cosplay and the way their group photos turned out, I'd say I made the best choice with my cosplay. Perhaps next time cosplay as someone from one show/game/etc and then someone else from another to mix myself in better.
Overall, it was an amazing experience and this along with my birthday celebration and seeing Black Sabbath, Faith No More and Motörhead in Hyde Park has no doubt made this month one of the best yet! I will definitely have to go to future MCM events and would like to see about attending London in October, even if it is more crowded than Manchester's events. Failing London, I'll try and leave the next event as late as Manchester for 2015 but hope to go to a sooner event. At least for next time, I know to ask for ANYONE whose cosplay that I like seeing if I could take a photo of them and I can go ahead and go on my own to these events as you're bound to be talking to people throughout the day so no need to find my friends, although seeing them would still be great.
Lastly, I said to myself that if there was one thing I hoped to do with this weekend it was to discover new people and thanks to those Whovians, I more than succeeded with that so I'm very proud of myself for going to this!
There are so many great moments to mention that it's hard to know where to begin. I'd say for starters it was great having many people approaching me calling me The Doctor as I was dressed up as the Fourth Doctor (Tom Baker) and I appreciated everyone taking photos of me. However, the photo shoots that the Whovians did a few times throughout the weekend did actually get a bit tiring due to posing with a sonic screwdriver for half an hour which really did make my arms ache over the weekend but it was still worth it. I only hope I can find loads more photos of myself with the cosplay whether it be on my own or in a group of any size.
Other moments I really liked was some of the awesome cosplayers that I came across. While so many were fantastic, I have to give a shout out to the ones that went as Daft Punk, the one with a cardboard box over their head and ran around the building with it and the two that were cosplaying as the Star Wars AT-AT. Those all are undoubtabley legends as well as others. Another notable moment was meeting Hattie Hayridge, Holly from Red Dwarf. I had wanted to meet the Dwarfers but was unsure about spending £15 on an autograph at first. I sadly missed out on Robert Llewellyn and Judy Pascoe due to meeting up with one of them on the Sunday and they were left with Chris Barrie and Hattie but it was still a pleasure speaking to Hattie as she said "Hello Doctor!" to me. Decided the autograph would be for the whole family and managed to get a photo with me which I'm pleased with.
As much as I enjoyed the whole event, if there was one thing I was rather disappointed with it was my shyness. Seeing so many people that I didn't know with them being in cosplays and everything, I felt awkward just approaching everyone and trying to take photos with them but I really should have thought that others there would have been just as nervous as I was. Being fair, this was my first time so I will be a little rough around the edges but it still disappoints me that I had spoken to very little of those in Adventure Time cosplays and I really love that show so missed opportunities on speaking to likeminded people is a bit of a bummer but I suppose I can't win at everything. At least hanging out with the Whovians was a pleasure and it was easier to speak to them due to relevant cosplay and the way their group photos turned out, I'd say I made the best choice with my cosplay. Perhaps next time cosplay as someone from one show/game/etc and then someone else from another to mix myself in better.
Overall, it was an amazing experience and this along with my birthday celebration and seeing Black Sabbath, Faith No More and Motörhead in Hyde Park has no doubt made this month one of the best yet! I will definitely have to go to future MCM events and would like to see about attending London in October, even if it is more crowded than Manchester's events. Failing London, I'll try and leave the next event as late as Manchester for 2015 but hope to go to a sooner event. At least for next time, I know to ask for ANYONE whose cosplay that I like seeing if I could take a photo of them and I can go ahead and go on my own to these events as you're bound to be talking to people throughout the day so no need to find my friends, although seeing them would still be great.
Lastly, I said to myself that if there was one thing I hoped to do with this weekend it was to discover new people and thanks to those Whovians, I more than succeeded with that so I'm very proud of myself for going to this!
Friday, 11 July 2014
There's always hope
I had seen a few people on Facebook feeling down last night and I always wish I could say something to them to make them feel better but I never seem to have the best of advice and when I do say anything it always comes off as a generic message to me. However, I do appreciate those that give great advice to them since they can be sure they have plenty of great friends around.
A few of them had said how they feel hopeless with never finding someone to be with and I do feel the same most of the time. I can relate to them very well with that since I thought I had my chance but of course things did not go in my favour and then felt like I had no hope. The thing is, the one thing to keep in mind is wondering who you might meet sometime in the future. There's plenty of time to meet plenty of people and I just have to consider how many people I've met over the last two years so imagine who I'm gonna meet over the next two years.
You just never know what kind of great people you will eventually come across wherever you go whether it be your local area or somewhere outside. Personally I hope to find someone out there at some point but where that could be I just have to find out. While I'm at the age of 23... well, 24 tomorrow, I've got all the time I have so I should make the most out of it and be adventurous. This is why I decided to go ahead with attending MCM Manchester next week even if I only considered it as late as last month but still, it's a big event and I should be meeting plenty of new people. It's not certain that I'll find my girl there but as long as I get to meet new great people, even if it's just a few, that alone would make me happy and would assure me that the trip wasn't a waste. I'm not just talking about this event but rather anywhere else that I'll go whether it be the local bars or somewhere beyond Merseyside such as Manchester, London or any of the music festivals (not this year for me besides Hyde Park BST but I'll give it a thought next year).
Hopefully others that feel hopeless about their love lives will consider my thoughts and realise that they too just need to take the chance to enjoy themselves in life and do whatever they want and go wherever. There's still plenty of great people to meet in life that you haven't met yet so just play things out for the time being. I would like to see that in two years I will look back at this post and reflect on all the great individuals I have come across in that period of time.
A few of them had said how they feel hopeless with never finding someone to be with and I do feel the same most of the time. I can relate to them very well with that since I thought I had my chance but of course things did not go in my favour and then felt like I had no hope. The thing is, the one thing to keep in mind is wondering who you might meet sometime in the future. There's plenty of time to meet plenty of people and I just have to consider how many people I've met over the last two years so imagine who I'm gonna meet over the next two years.
You just never know what kind of great people you will eventually come across wherever you go whether it be your local area or somewhere outside. Personally I hope to find someone out there at some point but where that could be I just have to find out. While I'm at the age of 23... well, 24 tomorrow, I've got all the time I have so I should make the most out of it and be adventurous. This is why I decided to go ahead with attending MCM Manchester next week even if I only considered it as late as last month but still, it's a big event and I should be meeting plenty of new people. It's not certain that I'll find my girl there but as long as I get to meet new great people, even if it's just a few, that alone would make me happy and would assure me that the trip wasn't a waste. I'm not just talking about this event but rather anywhere else that I'll go whether it be the local bars or somewhere beyond Merseyside such as Manchester, London or any of the music festivals (not this year for me besides Hyde Park BST but I'll give it a thought next year).
Hopefully others that feel hopeless about their love lives will consider my thoughts and realise that they too just need to take the chance to enjoy themselves in life and do whatever they want and go wherever. There's still plenty of great people to meet in life that you haven't met yet so just play things out for the time being. I would like to see that in two years I will look back at this post and reflect on all the great individuals I have come across in that period of time.
Wednesday, 9 July 2014
Wednesdays...
So I'm having my first staying in at home on a Wednesday in a long time. Last time I did this was whenever I was last ill on this day of the week which was probably sometime last year. I had usually been out of the house on Wednesdays. particularly for Liverpool but things have been getting too quiet at one place for my liking and the recent weeks I've found myself bored to the point of sleeping on one of the sofas there. It's because of this I started leaving earlier than usual to head off to a pub and Wednesday pub trips weren't a thing for me up until a few months back when it was decided that my time was better off having a pint in the evening.
So today I've just sat in and not need to go to Liverpool. However, I had the temptation to go out to the pub still seeing as the weather is really good but after last weekend in London with all that booze as well as the oncoming storm that is Friday night, I decided it was best to stay in and as much as I don't like being stuck indoors all day, I'm actually not doing that bad. I guess I can get used to not doing as much on Wednesdays as I did in the past. It will help with a money a bit as well so that's a plus for me.
This isn't to say my old Wednesday plans are forever done. I think if I'm to go there it's because I know enough of my close friends will be there and/or the rain is pissing down so walking 40 minutes to the Job Centre one way is not a bright idea so travel day ticket will be needed for those cases. Other than that, I'm content with home. Well, this day of the week will be the best opportunity to go swimming so we'll see...
UPDATE: Ended up going to the pub anyway thanks to a friend of mine giving me a text to find out if I was going out or not. Was good to get out of the house for a few hours, although with just a trip to the pub and nothing else, it doesn't feel as adventurous as past Wednesdays did. Thankfully I didn't have too much to drink. Only two pints and one of them was free. Let's see if I can keep the drinking to a minimum tomorrow as well.
So today I've just sat in and not need to go to Liverpool. However, I had the temptation to go out to the pub still seeing as the weather is really good but after last weekend in London with all that booze as well as the oncoming storm that is Friday night, I decided it was best to stay in and as much as I don't like being stuck indoors all day, I'm actually not doing that bad. I guess I can get used to not doing as much on Wednesdays as I did in the past. It will help with a money a bit as well so that's a plus for me.
This isn't to say my old Wednesday plans are forever done. I think if I'm to go there it's because I know enough of my close friends will be there and/or the rain is pissing down so walking 40 minutes to the Job Centre one way is not a bright idea so travel day ticket will be needed for those cases. Other than that, I'm content with home. Well, this day of the week will be the best opportunity to go swimming so we'll see...
UPDATE: Ended up going to the pub anyway thanks to a friend of mine giving me a text to find out if I was going out or not. Was good to get out of the house for a few hours, although with just a trip to the pub and nothing else, it doesn't feel as adventurous as past Wednesdays did. Thankfully I didn't have too much to drink. Only two pints and one of them was free. Let's see if I can keep the drinking to a minimum tomorrow as well.
Tuesday, 8 July 2014
Hello World
So I've opened up this blog here after realising that I had nowhere to blog on the internet. I had just recently deleted my Tumblr account and had done some blogging on there but without having one now, I've turned to Blogger for blogging purposes.
I decided to get off Tumblr after a little fall out with someone who I reblogged a lot of stuff from so I figured my account wasn't going to do a lot of good to me anymore. One could say I could try and patch things up but knowing that she didn't treat my feelings as anything and lacked the decency to keep in contact with me after I tried to keep messaging her to keep in touch, I felt she wasn't a true friend and that to me ended the friendship right there. Thankfully it wasn't anyone local so it won't make things awkward anywhere around here. It's funny how I got brought to Tumblr because of one girl I ended up liking and then I closed my account because of another girl that I liked.
Anyway, my blogging purposes here will mostly be personal stuff that I feel will fit better here than it will on Twitter and Facebook and whatever comes to mind that I want to put on here I will post it but I'll refrain from making posts that are too personal. This is merely a replacement for my Tumblr account so I may not constantly use this blog but we can only wait and see.
One thing I'll say for now about personal thoughts is that I have had my downer moments and have felt bummed out that my chances with dating anyone are as non-existent as ever but I've learned that getting too attached to one girl that I like is not a good idea. I'm all for finding the right one for me and aforementioned girl had almost everything I wanted from a partner but I found out the answer and have learned much worse later on. For now, there is one that I'm becoming interested in but I only met her once at a friend's birthday pub crawl and we didn't talk much for long that night but at least we got Facebook contacts so we're able to keep in touch and we're both attending MCM Manchester next week so hopefully we can catch up then! Not gonna build my hopes up too much right now but it would be great if bigger things ended up happening but if not, a new great friend is still a plus.
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